I noticed last night that I am obessed with my weight. I think about it almost non-stop. How fat I am. How I can't manage to LOSE weight. How it seems that the harder I try the more I gain. I am concerned because being obsessed like this isn't healthy either! But I also know (and I have seen in action) that if I STOP thinking about it I gain it back and more. I was having fantasies last night of going to my doctor and demanding that she DO something... TRY Metformin, refer me to a bariatric specialist! SOMETHING! I was practically in tears I was so frustrated. That was when I realize that I was obsessed. And depressed. I decided that I am going to do the opposite of what the nutritionist suggested and actually INCREASE my St. John's Wort. That means I have to get some. I haven't actually BEEN taking it - well, not at all consistantly - for a long time. So I am going to start again.
That is pretty much all I have to report. I was 219.2 this morning. I slept until almost noon - but I didn't go to bed until after 2am and then had troubles falling asleep.
I am going to ReCollections today. I have a gift certificate from my birthday that I had forgotten about until I was cleaning up for Easter. I swore off ReCollections about a year ago and have been pretty consistant about NOT going there - but I DO have a gift certificate. Maybe I will buy $40 worth of Bazzil white cardstock. Speaking of which... when are we going to do a scrapbook weekend?
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