Friday, November 25, 2005

The Day After

Yesterday wasn't nearly as bad as it could have been. I kept my eating light all day--1.5 scrambled eggs (I needed half an egg for the rolls I was making) for breakfast, cheese and crackers (we're still out of fruit, or maybe we're out of fruit again) for lunch, and I think that's about it during the day. At mom and dad's I had one piece of cheese with a cracker and two pieces of the baguette with baked brie for an appetizer (not that I needed anything to improve my appetite!) and I kept all of my portions small at dinner, except the stuffing. I skipped the mashed potatoes and jello (and cranberries, but then, I always skip them). But it was still way more food than normal--turkey, stuffing, gravy, carrots, green beans, sweet potatoes, and a roll. Plus a pear cider and a glass of wine (I don't think I drank any water at all yesterday). But it was the slice of pecan pie with cool whip that put me over the top. Up until then, I was merely full--after that, I was stuffed. And I was 145.6 this morning (after being 145 even yesterday morning). When I got home, I did a pilates DVD so I wouldn't miss the exercise (and because I really needed it!).

Today I got up early, had a cup of coffee, went to Amy's, had a huge eggnog latte, and that was it for the morning. I did try to choke down cottage chesse with canned plums, but ewwewwww. So when I got home I made a grilled cheese with tomato sandwich for lunch. The tomato was just to make me feel less guilty about having a grilled cheese!

I survived...

Let's see...I should have read when I posted last. Wednesday I did the pilates DVD, Thursday Joe & I walked when we got up and today I did the pilates DVD when I got up. I have kept up the exercise for 9 days straight.

Wednesday food...can't really recall excpet we had pinto & corn "burgers" for dinner, which were quite yummy--Amy & Katie, did you make these at Let's Dish?

Thursday I had grits for breakfast, pretzels for lunch and then we ate around 3 pm at Joe's mom's. I had some of it all, but not really a lot of anything. You'll all gasp when I say this--but I really don't care for turkey so I only had a teeny amount so his mom wouldn't be offended, then stuffing (which Larry's mother made, and it tasted like bread & parsley, ick!) lima beans, corn, saurkraut, cranberry salad (I made it! It's my mom's recipe and it isn't Thanksgiving without it) mashed potatoes, a roll, sweet potatoes...and I had seconds of cranberry salad and sweet potatoes. Then we had some chocolate pie thing for dessert which was so rich it gagged me. I ate the graham cracker crust and wasted the rest.

Larry's sister was there and she had that stomach surgery. (Larry is the man Joe's mother lives with, just so you know who I am talking about) That is not something I would ever consider I don't think. Not that I am remotely fat enough for that, but if I ever weighed 300+ lbs I'd still try the old fashioned way before resorting to that. She couldn't eat anything. She had 2 bites of turkey, a scoop of potatoes and some stuffing. I enjoy food way to much for that. I just need to continue being a student of portion control and moderation.

So now, I am waiting on my terribly bitter sister to call me and then we're headed out shopping. The guilt got to me and I ditched the scrapbooking this morning to go out with her. I'm pretty sure I'll regret that. How do you tell someone bitterness is ugly? She just wallows in her own self pity and it drives me nuts. This is going to be a "great" afternoon...

Hope you all had a lovely Thanksgiving!

Thursday, November 24, 2005

It's all about the food

It's Thanksgiving Day -- that's for eating too much, right? I was just celebrating the holiday in proper form. That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it. For breakfast I had a sausage link, a biscuit with jelly, a doughnut, and a small glass of OJ. We had dinner at midday, and I had a lot of turkey, and some mashed potatoes and gravy (smallish amount of both), dressing (which I genuinely enjoyed -- Daniel's mother said it's the first time she's *ever* made it, since Grandma Gunn always did it, so she had to guess at the recipe, and she definitely did something right), green beans (Southern-style, of course. Hmph), and a roll (with butter -- it's Thanksgiving, after all). Then I ate a lot more turkey. I had a piece of pecan pie later in the afternoon and I snacked on numerous chocolates much of the day. At some point I had a glass of milk. In the evening I had a glass of wine, and around 9 or so we realized we'd missed supper so I ate a couple of small pieces of turkey, a roll, and a small slice of pecan pie again! So it was too much food but I enjoyed it thoroughly, and tomorrow we'll be on the road so I won't have so many snacks on hand and I will get my usual salad at the fast food places. (I'm proud of myself on that front -- I haven't had a burger and fries at the fast food places we've gone to since the diet started, and honestly I haven't missed them.)

I did get out and walk today, around 11 am. I only went 40 minutes even though I would have had time to do more; my enthusiasm for walking alone is really starting to wane. I don't know if I'll be able to walk before we leave tomorrow, but I suspect not, and it will certainly be dark when we get home. I may have to commandeer the TV after we put the kids to bed so I can work out that way. It will be nice to be home again, though I've been spoiled by having built-in babysitters so I can go exercise when I like!

I hope some of the rest of you post so I know I'm not the only glutton today!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Still exercising, still overeating

Yesterday I ate pretty well -- I don't remember specifics but it wasn't much food most of the day, and I had fruit and whole grains and everything. But then Daniel brought me a beer and I ate several chocolates, after having had only two all day! Today I was terrible about the chocolates, and everything else, for that matter. For breakfast I had a doughnut and a small bowl of raisin bran. For lunch I had two chocolate chip cookies, and then for snack I had about a gallon of popcorn. Seriously. Dinner was pizza but I was so sick from all the popcorn that I only ate once slice (and, more to the point, I only wanted one slice!). I have a headache now, I think from eating so badly all day. I did have milk to drink this evening, and other than that I had water all day -- I didn't drink a soda at the movies.

But I have been very good about exercise. Yesterday I went out mid-afternoon and wound up walking for an hour, mostly to make up for some of the time I'd missed the day before. And I wasn't at all sore, though I was ready to go to bed at about nine. Today we went to the Space and Rocket Center in the morning, then got home and turned right around to go to the movies (hence the cookies for lunch -- they were straight from the oven and easily grabbed), and by the time we got back the sun was setting. But I didn't want to think about breaking my streak when I didn't even have an excuse like the weather, so I immediately changed into my exercise clothes (and inspired Daniel to do the same, because yesterday he found out about the exercise challenge and thought he should make some effort himself, starting today). By the time I was about a mile out it was getting quite dark, so I turned around at that point instead of going for 5 minutes more as I usually would. It was full dark by the time I reached the house again, but I got in 30 minutes of walk. After yesterday and today I'm down 30 minutes on my goal of 40 minutes a day since arriving here (an unofficial goal -- I read once that after 30 minutes you stop burning muscle and start burning fat, so 40 minutes has a more dramatic effect). If I can find an hour tomorrow I'll make most of that up.

Oddly enough, I expect my eating will be better tomorrow than today -- we're not going anywhere and the meals will be balanced!

Happy Thanksgiving, everybody!

145.5!

My title says it all--I was 145.5 this morning! I then had cooked Scottish oatmeal with raisins and skimmed milk for breakfast, plus orange juice. I don't know how I suddenly dropped so low.

I'm glad I'm not the only one!

I was trying to figure out how to admit that I had cereal last night for dinner, so I'm glad to see that Julie had the same thing. Mine was a time issue--after picking up the kids from daycare, we went to the party store to get invitations and decorations for Claire's birthday and then to the toy store to pick up toys to donate at church, so by the time we got home it was close to 7:30 and the kids were starving, so I fed them (leftover pizza for Claire, fish sticks for Connor--I either couldn't or wouldn't eat any of those things). By the time they were settled with their food, I was on the phone--first Brian called, and when I got off the phone with him, Connor had started a bath for himself (fully clothed, of course), so I made it his official bath time. While he was in the tub, Eric called. By the time I got off the phone with him, Connor was running around naked and Claire wanted a bath, so I got Connor settled with a movie and Claire in the tub, which was when Mom called. After her call, I read to the kids and got them in bed, then figured that if I was going to do any exercise, I'd better do it right then, so I did a 20 minute pilates dvd followed by 20 minutes of the pilates aerobic workout (first time for that--mostly the warm up is pilates-based, then it's a pretty typical aerobic workout, only with live drummers and a lot of reminders to use your core). So FINALLY after that I could eat--only it was after 11:00 and I didn't want to actually cook anything. Thus the cereal.

The evening wasn't much different from the rest of the day--it was all pretty much just one thing after another. Maybe I should pack my dinner at the same time that I pack my lunch so I'll stop eating junk at night!

Uneventful Tuesday

Tuesday was a pretty boring day. Food: yogurt with granola for breakfast, a banana, chicken salad on a bagel for lunch (I didn't eat the whole thing, the bagel was too hard and the chicken salad had too much pickle relish in it) and raisins, and then cereal again for dinner. We had dessert last night though--molten chocolate cakes.

I did the pilates dvd again and spent 15 minutes on the treadmill.

Like I said, very unexciting.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Oh, dear!

I haven't posted in forever, and I haven't been writing down what I eat, either. I told Sarah I had been too busy and she laid the guilt on me!

I did weigh in this morning at 147, which is one pound less than last week, but still not much progress.

Anyway, I am impressed at all of you for trying so hard and exercising! At the last two Messiah rehearsals Ed had us stretching out, and that was about the most I have done in a long time!

No Joy in Flab-ville

Well - It could have been worse. I was 207.2 today. That was down from both yesterday AND the day before. I have dinner at the Melting Pot tonight and Thanksgiving on Thursday - so I am not expecting to lose anything before next week. Sigh - maybe I will be plesantly surprise.

Last night I just did the Pilates DVD. I was abandoned by my workout partner - so it was all I could do to motivate THAT much out of myself. I did chase Claire for about 10 seconds - just long enough to skid across my slippery "new" floor and wipe out at the end of the hall. I now have a skinned elbow and a multicolored/puffy/useless little finger. 8-)

My food was pretty good yesterday. I pretended to be Sarah for dinner and ended up eating the discarded food around my house - yogurt, string cheese, and a small piece of pizza. I think there was something else, but I can't remember what. I had no vegetables at home - but a V-8 at work.

I have been intentionally light on food today planning to eat heartily tonight. I had my usualy cereal and skim milk, prunes and a V-8 today. That is about it.

No weigh-in for me today

I discovered that Daniel's mom does have a scale, but it's one of those rotary-number scales and it's on a carpet so it wouldn't be very accurate, and even if it were accurate it wouldn't be calibrated to my scale, so it really wouldn't tell me anything useful. I'll just have to post my weight when I get back home and can weigh myself on Saturday.

Today we're having a family portrait done and I'm borrowing a dress from Suzanne for it. It's a size 12 and it fits well across the waist and hips (hooray!), though I'm inclined to suck in when I wear it. It's tight across the bust, though. I could probably get into 12 pants, but, frankly, right now the 14s feel perfect, and one pair of 16s I have is still not too big (but they always did fit more like the 14s). I cannot IMAGINE getting into 10s right now -- Katie, you are amazing! (And, Sarah, those of us with baby skin sagging off our fronts will always wear larger clothes and will hide from bikinis. C'est la vie.) I think if I lose all the weight I'd like to lose and get down to the 130s I might wear 12s and get lucky and find some 10 skirts that fit. I have never been smaller than a 10 except when I was 11 years old and had one pair of size 3 pants. Oh, well!

147.8

I, too, keep hovering. I did see 147.4 at one point this week, but I've been right around 148 for most of the week. I think part of the reason this is so frustrating for me is because it seems like when we first started on this, I was doing GREAT! I was losing 1-2 pounds a week, no problem! I think I've reached a little bit of a plateau. I know it's not TECHNICALLY a plateau, but if I want to increase my rate of losing, I need to cut my calorie count and step up my exercise. Yesterday, as Sarah said, we did the Pilates for Dummies AND the kickboxing. Normally I would have done one or the other, not both. But it was perfect. They are SUCH opposite routines (the kickboxing is all agressive and kinda scary, and the pilates is calm and smooth) that they balanced each other well, and I ended up with both aerobics and toning. I think I'm going to add that to this exercise challenge--I have to do toning AND cardio/aerobic exercise every day. Does square dancing for 45 minutes with 30 first graders count? It's a whole lot of "Walk IN-2-3-4 and OUT-2-3-4 and IN-2-3-4- and Swing your partner-3-4- and OUT-2-3-4!!" I think it should count. So yesterday I did kickboxing, pilates, 45 minutes of 1st grade square dancing, and 45 minutes of 2nd grade square dancing (which is only slightly more intricate). Can I count that as exercise for the next three days? =)

Thank you, Julie, for my prize. She gave me this nifty Pumpkin Pie flavored bubble bath/shower gel/shampoo stuff. I think Amy's told everyone about this company. Their stuff all sounds really neat. And so multi-purpose!!

I was just noticing today that it might officially be time to retire my size 12 pants. They're getting so big on me that I keep tripping over the legs (which were always a little long) and the waist is precariously balanced on my hips (and not in a stylish way). So if anyone is trying to come up with a Christmas present for me--size 10 seems to be the way to go!! Woo hoo!! Maybe I'll just take Julie's idea and go shopping for me. I could use a new Christmas outfit, anyway. =)

145.6

Or 145.4 (after my shower--still can't figure that out!), but I'm going with the higher weight to give me a bit more wiggle room for NEXT week's weigh-in after Thanksgiving!

And speaking of wiggle room, last night when I went to pick up Claire from Katie (Claire had the day off so Katie took care of her after school), I stayed to exercise--we did the kickboxing workout followed by the Pilates for Dummies (or whatever) DVD. The pilates one was great--I really liked the length of it (mine are either 20 minutes or 45 - 50 minutes, so 30ish minutes was nice), and it would have been even better if we hadn't had to keep stopping to drag Connor away from the glass rods, the kitty litter, etc. I felt silly doing the kickboxing, but it was a good workout.

Food yesterday: oatmeal for breakfast, yogurt, pretzles, and mixed vegetables for lunch (we're out of fruit), almonds and string cheese for snack (I should just save this to a word document and cut and paste it into my posts); dinner never really happened--I ordered chicken strips and pizza for the kids and had one bite of Claire's pizza and a couple of pieces of Connor's chicken. Amy and Katie also still have LOTS of good Halloween candy around (not just yucky fruity stuff) so I had half of a mini Hershey bar and a little box of Junior Mints, then because that wasn't quite enough junk for me for the day, I had two lollipops when I got home.

Today so far I've had cereal and two cups of coffee. Thank God for that coffee pot with the timer. I don't know how I lived without it. It's hard to get going on mornings like this without it!

Emily, good for you for exercising at the Crawfords even though you weren't able to get outside!

Julie, congratulations on getting into a size 12!

162.7

Now to just keep this momentum going....

Monday, November 21, 2005

Four days, sort of

Today it poured from dawn until dusk so I couldn't go out for a walk. (It did actually stop at dusk, but we were on the road at that point, and it was full dark before we got back to the house, and there are coyotes here, so there's no way I'm going out on a walk after dark.) If I were at home I'd have a video I could do, or I could run up and down the stairs, or find some kind of aerobic exercise, but here that's just not an option -- there's nowhere that I would feel comfortable doing an aerobic workout. But I didn't want to totally miss out on exercise today, so I went into our room and did crunches and other lower body toning (and some upper body toning, if you count that I was trying to hold a hardback book and read while I did the lower body stuff, and it added some resistance!). I worked out for about ten minutes before I got interrupted and I didn't get another opportunity to go back to it. Sheesh. But my streak's not completely broken.

My food today was not so good, except on the whole grains front. I had raisin bran with skim milk for breakfast, and for lunch I had slivered steak on whole wheat, with milk to drink. But then we went to the movies and I had a LOT of popcorn and a big Sprite (I let Daniel go to the concession stand without me -- bad idea, because he bought too much food -- at least I only drank half the Sprite), and a mini package of M&Ms which Daniel discovered in his jacket pocket. Dinner was pot roast, so I ate small pieces of that and a small amount of mashed potatoes with a bit of gravy, and some carrots and green beans and a crescent roll. If I hadn't gone to the movies it would have been about right, but instead I had about twice as many calories as I needed. Maybe more. I only had two of the chocolates in the house but since I had the M&Ms I can't be very proud of that!

Tomorrow I hope the weather will be better so I can do something aerobic. We're not going anywhere tomorrow so maybe I can eat sensibly!

Make that 5 days for me...

Food today was: yogurt with granola, carrots, banana, vegetarian chili, raisins, wheat creackers, cheese, raisin bran and milk. I'll probably have a thin mint or 2 for a snack later.

Exercise today was: pilates dvd and 15 minutes on the stair stepper.

I think this no excuses approach to exercise is what I needed. It is really beginning to be part of my routine and isn't so much of a chore anymore. I almost enjoy the pilates to the point of seeing how much better my form gets. I can finally do 2 of the moves the whole way through. I still have trouble with the ones at the end where you hold your body up with your arms. Next time I go to the dr I am going to ask about where I broke my arm 10 years ago--when I try those moves it feels so weak halfway between my elbox and my shoulder. It is really weird.

Why shopping can be a good thing...

I went to Ann Taylor at lunch time and discovered 2 good things:

#1: I can fit into their pants now. Next I have to find a way to grow 4 inches so they aren't too long...

#2: I bought a dress for Joe's Christmas party and it was a size 12. WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!

One Day in a Row

I LOVED Harry Potter. Well - maybe LOVED is a little strong for my reaction - but I thought this was the most entertaining one so far.

I agree with you Julie that the new Dumbeldore is not very good compared to Richard Harris. Richard Harris was perfect - graceful, calm in a crisis, intelligent, mysterious. The new guy is just NOT Dumbledore. He is agressive, blustery, cumbersome and not at all reassuring. He has to scream to keep order - where Dumbledore only has to stand up for everything to calm down. It would have been impossible to include everything from the whole 900 page book in a 2 hour movie - so I thought they moved the story along nicely with the very limited time they had. Like I said to Katie afterwards - bumbling teenagers are far funnier than cute kids.

So yesterday after I posted I did exercise. Katie and I did a toning video. We have decided to join in on the exercise everyday no excused accepted challege. I just hope I can stick with it. Then we went and got sushi for dinner. Sushi isn't so bad as far as healthy food goes - but I always seem to over do it. It is just so yummy! I didn't eat anymore after that yesterday.

Today I am starting with renewed vigor! I am trying to recall what it was like for us when we first started and before we started to figure out what exceptions were acceptable (ie - coffee with skim milk and one spoon of sugar). The one thing I was most strict with myself about was eating early in the day and frequently. I drifted away from that in recent weeks. So today as soon as I got into work I ate my cereal with skim milk. Shortly I will eat my applesauce.

Ugh. I am crampy - and my weight was only down by .2 from yesterday. But considering yesterday I was at the same weight as I was mid-October this isn't a good thing. Sigh. I need to lose 2 pounds to get myself to the same weight I was on the last weigh in day in October - and 7.2 pound by 12/6 to meet my 5 pounds a month goal (or 6.8 to make my average 5 pounds per month). I don't think I can do that in the next two weeks. At this point I would be happy just to get back down to my October low of 204.2!

4 days in a row for me...

Saturday Joe & I walked the neighborhood, and yesterday I did another pilates dvd. I can tell already my butt isn't as blubbery as it has been. Still icky, but getting better.

Emily--Harry Potter disappointed me. I don't care for how the new director interpreted the events in the book. There is one point where Dumbledore YELLS at H.P. and it is just totally out of line with Dumbledore's character in the book. This one strays the farthest from the real story. And WAY TO GO with the exercise!!! It really is an achievement to be able to fit exercise in when you are away from home and out of your normal routine.

Food Saturday was AWFUL. I skipped breakfast, then had Brickers french fries for lunch, popcorn at the movies with regular soda b/c Joe won't touch diet, and then we ate at the Italian place in Glen Rock for dinner--I had manicotti and a salad and bread.

Sunday I met my friend Sarah for breakfast and I had french toast and bacon, lunch was left over manicotti and dinner was beef pie. But somehow I was only 163.7 this morning so I am going to step up the exercise today so all that food doesn't show up in my weight tomorrow.

In addition to the pilates yesterday I also cleaned the living room, kitchen and bathroom REALLY well. I like cleaning. It is a bit sick.

Amy, you & Katie could get motivated by saying every bead you make is a sit up. Then you can make lots of beads and set exercise goals for yourselves...

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Three days in a row!

I went for a walk again today. It was a slower walk, but I was carrying Cecilia (everyone else had gone out and left us), and I had no stroller or sling, so I got a better upper body workout than usual. I covered about two miles in the 40 minutes. My hips and legs are getting less sore, but that spot on my back is being slow to recover -- the bed here is so firm that my back tends to ache when I haven't even had any unusual exertions. But thanks to Julie's exercise challenge I'm sticking with this. Tomorrow will be trickier -- I think I'll have to try to squeeze it in after breakfast instead of in the afternoon, because mid-morning we're going shopping and around lunchtime Daniel and I are headed out to see Harry Potter (P&P will be on Wednesday), and by the time we get back it will be too late to walk.

Today for brunch I had scrambled eggs, a biscuit half with gravy and half with jelly, one piece of bacon, orange juice, and a piece of a really, really good cheese danish (and then two bites of Alexander's when he abandoned it -- it was really, really, really good). I had very small portions of everything and resisted seconds because I was full, though I would cheerfully have eaten every bit of food on the table. For supper we had spaghetti with meat sauce, and I didn't think I took much but it seemed like a lot more once the sauce was on it, so I left about a third of the noodles on my plate. I had a glass of wine and a mediumish salad. I'm really, really short on fruits, vegetables, and whole grains here -- I get uncomfortable from it (to put it politely). I'm also short on dairy products today -- I'm going to have a glass of milk before bed. I also didn't snack all day (the advantage of being in someone else's house, though some healthy snacks would have been quite welcome) except for chocolates, and today I managed to eat only three. Tomorrow's diet will be better -- I'll be able to have cereal for breakfast, and popcorn for a snack. ;-)

Finally did some pilates!

Last night, close to midnight, I finally got the kids to bed so I put in a DVD and did one of the 20 minute workouts. I then didn't get to bed until 3 a.m.--Brian was out with Neil and Neil was planning on coming to stay for the night so he could get his flight in the morning (the light rail doesn't run early enough on Sunday), so after doing the pilates I did all the dishes, cleaned the living room, tracked down blankets and sheets for the sofabed, and then finished up with some online Christmas shopping. Then when the guys got home around 2:30 I stayed up and socialized for a bit.

This morning I woke up with my back killing me from raking leaves--even with all the exercising I've been doing, I'm obviously missing some major muscles! I got out for a run pretty early (the weather was perfect) and will do another pilates DVD after I get the kids to bed, which will probably be around midnight again since they both slept late and then Connor napped this afternoon!

I feel like I've eaten way too much today, but I just did the calorie count and it's not bad. I've just been snacking on more junk than usual. I had oatmeal for breakfast, soup for lunch, french fries and mixed vegetables for dinner (hey, at least I had some veggies!), three Girl Scout cookies, a tablespoon of chocolate chips, and popcorn for snack. It works out to just under 1300 calories, so I'll probably have cottage cheese and fruit in a while to make up for the lack of fruit and protein. But I feel really full. Do french fries count as whole grain? Except for the cookies and chocolate chips, everything else was really filling.