Ugh, ugh, ugh!

I'm backsliding in a BIG way! I have no willpower whatsoever with candy in the house. I was so good on Monday, but then Tuesday and Wednesday I ate candy like it was going out of style, so yesterday I tried to be reasonable about it--instead of saying "stay away from the candy!" I told myself I could have two pieces. Apparently my body interpreted that as two pieces every hour because I just kept eating it. It really is like an addiction--as long as I stay away from the stuff, it isn't so bad, but as soon as I give in a bit, I overindulge. It didn't help that I was off of work yesterday since I had two school meetings, a Kennedy Krieger evaluation, and a doctor's appointment--but in between all of those I was munching on candy. Ugh. Today my weight was up to 148.8.

So today I'm determined to not eat so much candy. Fortunately, I'm back at work and the basket of candy at the reception desk has disappeared, so I won't be eating any candy while I'm here. But Connor is sick again (still?) so I may have to go home early to care for him, which means I'll be around temptation again. Also if I have to go home early, I won't be able to go to the gym. I've only been once this week so far (although I've still been doing pilates at home) so if I don't get there today, I need to find an alternate aerobic exercise for today and then go running both Saturday and Sunday in order to make my goal of four aerobic sessions each week.

I also really need to work on eating better dinners. Since Brian started working nights, there's no real motivation for me to cook good food. Connor won't eat any of what I cook, and Claire often won't either (especially anything highly flavored or spicy) so it just doesn't seem worth the effort to make essentially three different meals, so I end up making kid-friendly quick meals and picking at bad stuff myself.