Tuesday, February 28, 2006

stymied

Well, I am still stuck at 149. Of course yesterday I was 148. Tomorrow I will try to work harder at this, since Lent begins. I will need to pack a lunch to take to Sinai, so I will take yogurt, a clementine, and a couple of cookies. I won't have any other temptations to snack on. I'll have to take a drink, too. I have some sugar free, caff free Cokes, so I'll take one of those.

I don't believe we have to be there at 7:00 A.M.!!!

I sure haven't had any exercise today. I have spent most of the day looking at a doll site on-line. We had a young man come and rake the yard--I should have been doing that myself, I guess. He's a freshman at Dulaney.

Have to go fix dinner--leftover pork roast, a frozxen veggies mix with potatoes, and salad. Either pudding or cookies for dessert.

It must be in the air

This morning I was 139.5, the same as last week, tying my low. But I ate badly all week and exercised only Monday through Wednesday of last week, plus yesterday afternoon. And all week long my weight was hovering around 141, and at bedtime I was 142 last night, I think -- might even have been 143. So I have NO idea why my weight should have dropped today. And here I was planning to just give it all up for Mardi Gras and eat like a pig and then start fresh for Lent. But if my weight is low, I don't want to completely ruin it! Phooey. But there's beer in the fridge and we're having pizza for dinner (how do you like our authentic Mardi Gras? Irish beer and American-Italian food) so I'll enjoy myself but not stuff myself.

For my fasting days during Lent I'm going to have my usual small breakfast -- maybe with a clementine instead of OJ, so I get some real fruit -- and a small lunch, like yogurt and toast, and a small dinner, I don't know what yet, but no snacks in between. I will doubtless come in well under 1200 calories but it's good to shake things up once in a while, and this isn't about dieting anyway -- it's about being a little bit hungry all day. I'm not going to try for a total fast (though Daniel usually does) because I am still nursing. But I'll do better than last year -- last year I went without junk all day, but I still ate about five times each fasting day, because I was pregnant!

During Lent I'm going to swear off sweets. The Girl Scout cookies are going into the freezer (well, mine are, anyway -- I'll leave out the Thanks A Lots for the kids) and I suspect that act alone will get my dieting moving again. I've been awful since October except for occasional days of effort. Maybe now I can reach my goals.

Apparently it was water weight

Those few pounds that I gained last week all went away yesterday. My weight this morning was 133.6, less than a pound down from last week, but my lowest weight yet. Maybe it was something in the air yesterday, because it looks like we all had the same thing happen!

Food yesterday was all predictable--usual breakfast, lunch, and snacks, dinner was the Let's Dish garlic chicken with rice and vegetables. I ate too many gumdrops over the course of the evening (at least two servings worth, and part of my problem is that I didn't measure them out or keep count! I have NO control with gumdrops.). I didn't make it to the gym, but I did do the 45 minute pilates aerobics/matwork DVD. So overall not a bad day.

But I got skinnier overnight

Weigh in today is my lowest on a weigh in day--160.5 and down 1 lb since last week. I really hope to see the upper 150's through this week. That will be very cool.

Food yesterday: shredded wheat with 1% milk for breakfast, a medium turtle mocha (made with skim) from caribou coffee, a salad made of lettuce, carrots, shredded cheddar, tomatos and lite frnech dressing, a banana, 4 small chocolates (Larry at work put out the dove filled with caramel and I couldn't stay out of them), 2 string cheeses, some almonds (maybe 10? I didn't count) and another bowl of shredded wheat for dinner. I didn't add any of this up in my pryamid. I need to do that today, especially since I am eating dinner at Olive Garden tonight with my family.

Exercise was 50 minutes on the tread mill.

Almost back to where I belong

I was kind of dreading weigh-in day today since I have been so high (sort of) for the past several days. But it wasn't so bad. I am not quite back to my low point, but I was close. 202.2 today. I didn't quite believe it. Next weigh-in day Sarah and I will be on our cruise - so I am not sure if we will have a scale. That's OK - I am not sure if we will want to weigh ourselves!!!

I did a nice long workout yesterday... Maybe that was the difference. I started on the cross trainer - doing the cardio workout. One of the TVs was playing an episode of Charmed - so after 18 minutes I moved to the treadmill that was in front of that TV. I then walked through the rest of the episode. I kept moving the incline up and up. I LOVE it that with only a little more effort I burn so many more calories! I was sweating like crazy though.

Food - as I said - was OK. I had a piece of fat free carrot cake - that was more like bread early in the day. I also had a serving of Do-Si-Dos in the evening. Other than that it was all the same old stuff. I did actually EAT all of my stuff yesterday. I was getting back into the habit of forgetting to eat during the day and making poor food choices at night. I really DO like it better when I eat better.

Today my stomach is already growling. We were out of milk this morning - so I have half a bagel with applesauce for breakfast and yogurt for a morning snack.

Monday, February 27, 2006

I got fatter over the weekend...

Although my newly found skinny pants are still fitting me today, so the fatness must be somewhere that isn't affecting them.

It was a poor weekend for food. I exercised both days for 400-500 calories each day, but over ate both days and ended up being up nearly 2 lbs from Friday's low weight. I am going to be back on track today. But I am slightly sabotoged already for the week because I am having dinner at Olive Garden tomorrow night to celebrate my brother's promotion to Captain of the Metropolitan Washington Airports Authority Fire Department at Dulles. What the heck can you eat at OG that isn't atrocious??? The salad is laden with oil, the bread slathered with butter, and the meals are like a trillion calories per biteful...any suggestions?

Sarah--send pictures of the doggie!!!!!! I think you are an exceptionally brave woman to bring home a puppy so close to going away and leaving a man in charge of your household...and you will always be the default doggie-walker in the morning...and at night...and in the middle of the day...maybe Davey will be like Harry and comprehend this and pee on Brian's pillow like Harry has done before when Joe made him mad. I thought it was hysterical. Harry has also peed in Joe's slippers before. Filled the left shoe right up! He was even little when he did that--maybe 6 months old.

Ash Wednesday

I was thinking about this this weekend--how on earth do you fast for Ash Wednesday and Good Friday when you're already eating only 1200 or 1300 calories a day? I guess the only way to do it is to eat the same amount as I've been doing (I can't very well cut back!) but eat my snacks with my meals instead of between them. Any other ideas?

Holding steady

After climbing to 136, my weight has stayed there for the past couple of days. I had a really active weekend--five hours of Girl Scouts on Saturday followed by getting used to a new puppy all evening. My food was spotty on Saturday--coffee only for breakfast, then was stuck with the Girl Scout MRE for lunch (hot dog, potato chips, pudding, lollipop, and a juice box, but I only at the hot dog, juice, and half of the chips), and dinner was spaghetti and meatballs. I can't remember my daytime snacks, but we made popcorn in the evening. Sunday exercise was a "puppy biathalon" walk--run like mad for a distance, stop abruptly and snuffle around for a while, run like mad again. I was supposed to be doing my three mile run, but once Davey decided to come along, that got reduced to only a mile, so when I got back I did the 45 minute pilates aerobics and matwork DVD. The afternoon was all housework, taking either the dog or Connor out to play (Claire was off doing her Space Derby trial with Brian; and Davey and Connor didn't want to go out at the same time), and doing laundry. Then starting at 6:00 I kept moving for a solid four hours--the only time I sat down was to eat dinner, and that was only for about 10 or 15 minutes. Cooking dinner, doing laundry, packing lunches, doing dishes, getting the kids bathed and to bed, and taking Davey out a million times, including one longish walk in the freezing cold. Food was good yesterday--no breakfast again; lunch was a turkey sandwich on whole wheat with lettuce and tomato and a pear, snack was one serving (only!) of gumdrops that Brian brought home to try to sabotage my diet, and dinner was chicken with broccoli and carrots in an oriental sauce served with pita bread. I had another half serving of gumdrops before bed.

I'm apparently the default person for taking Davey out first thing in the morning, so today I've already gone on a half hour walk, although we didn't cover much territory in that half hour. I'm going to have to do that again at least once tonight, too. I have my gym bag with me, but I'm looking at my schedule this week and realizing that I probably won't get there today--I have way too many deadlines. Maybe I'll do that pilates DVD again tonight. It's goofy, but at least it's exercise.

I'm glad I'm not alone

I was really bad last week. I think I only made it to the gym 3 times. My eating was pretty bad too. I was craving carbs. I think it is partially the cold. In the cold our bodies are looking for easily converted fuels (sugar) and then that converts to fat to keep us warm. That's my story and I am sticking to it!

I have no memory of my weight on Sunday - I can't remember if I even weighed myself. I don't think I did - but Saturday I was 205.2. Ugh. We went to Bonefish Friday night and I ate and drank too much fattening stuff. I didn't exercise all weekend, but I didn't lay in bed and read the WHOLE time either. I got together page kits, packed some stuff for the trip and did laundry. I made two glass beads and did one trip to the scrapbook store. Otherwise I laid in bed and read. 8-)


Julie and I just met for coffee at Caribou. The last time we did that was either pre diet or shortly after the diet started. I remember we both had pastries the last time. This time we both DIDN'T - which is a vast improvement, because everyone knows the real reason you meet for "coffee" is to eat yummy desserts which you call breakfast.

I have an incredibly busy day ahead of me today. I probably won't make it to the gym until after 5pm - and then I am SO tired it is hard to motivate myself to actually GO. But - I figure I only have five more days to get myself in shape for bathing suit wearing. I think I will actually have to do a double workout each day all week. Sigh.

Saturday, February 25, 2006

A pound a day

I know it's impossible to gain a pound a day, at least without spending several hours each day at McDonalds, but that's what the scale has been telling me--133.6 on Wednedsay, 134 on Thursday, 135 yesterday, and 136 today! And while my diet hasn't been perfect, I've at least been keeping the calories between 1300 and 1400 each day, even if 100 or 200 of them are from cookies, and my exercise has also not been great--I only managed two trips to the gym and one pilates session this week--I still don't think it's possible that I'm really putting on weight at that rate!

I didn't make it to the gym yesterday. I ran errands at lunch instead (which is a euphamism for "I went to the scrapbook store." But I really DID need to get some fibers to finish off my tags for the swap on the cruise!) so I told myself I would do Brian's insane nighttime routine (one hour total, all resistance exercises done at a pace to get your heart rate up) and didn't because, guess what? I was finishing my tags for the swap. And watching the Olympics, uploading Florida maps onto my GPS, packing my toiletries, etc.

Today I'm spending all day at the Girl Scout's Thinking Day activities. We have to leave in 20 minutes for that, but I've told Brian that I have to do some kind of exercise today, and he'll hold me to that. He doesn't mind tempting me with all kinds of foods, but he doesn't let me slack on exercise.

Friday, February 24, 2006

Not doing well

I didn't post on weigh-in day, but I think I was about 149 or 149.5, which is what I was this morning. I have been eating like a pig. Aunt Carol was here, as most of you know, and we went out to dinner on Thursday and Tuesday--first Bertucci's and then Manor Tavern. Then we had the brunch for Amy, with a lot of left-over goodies that I felt compelled to help eat up. So I am lucky I'm not back up over 150. Carol is gone now, as are most of the goodies, but I seem to keep finding cookies and candy and picking away--oh, and I had a beer last night, and I have been into my almonds and Dad's peanuts. Dad brought up a pot roast for me to fix tonight, and he wanted it with potatoes and gravy, so that wasn't much help! I am never satisfied--I always want to have something more! Help!

Three out of four

Well - I was 203.4 this morning. That is 3 down from yesterday. I was looking through all of my old charts and discovered that I DO drop about four pounds in two or three days on a monthly basis. I know for sure last month it was related to my period - so the previous months probably were too.

I was better yesterday food wise - but still not stellar. I didn't snack in the evening (I don't much generally anyway) but I still felt like I ate too much all day. I am not sure why. Maybe I am on the flip side of my cycle now - instead of feeling constantly hungry I am feeling constantly too full.

I did 38 minutes on the machines yesterday. 22 minutes cross training on the fat buring interval and then 16 minutes on the treadmill at 5.5 incline (slightly slower pace). It amazes me how many more calories you burn just by increasing the resistance. The best part is you can hardly tell the difference while you are working - it isn't until later that you notice that you muscles are more tired or whatever.

I have a secret stash of chocolate covered pistachios in my desk drawer. They are 14 calories each. I am amazed because I have had this tin since Monday!!! and I still have a good chunk of them left. They are very rich - so after about 6 I am feeling queasy. Boy are they good!!!

My week

My weight has been all over the place--I had the low of 133.6, today I hit 135 even, and in between I've been up and down between those two extremes. Weird. But my diet and exercise have been consistent and not too bad, although my exercise is lower than I'd like. I got to the gym on Tuesday and again yesterday, and I have my stuff to go again today. But I haven't been doing pilates at home. I did it once on Monday and managed to re-injure my shoulder that hadn't healed completely from whatever I did to it when not changing my tire last week. It's been killing me ever since then so I don't want to do anything to strain it further. Maybe tonight I'll skip the pilates and find some just lower body toning exercises that don't involve arm movement.

Diet-wise, I'm o.k. I've been getting into the chocolate chip cookies at a rate of about two or three a day (110 to 160 calories) and not eating enough vegetables, but what else is new? We're back to having fruit in the house. I think we have a hard time keeping it now that I'm eating it--I never used to touch fruit very often but now I have at least two pieces a day, so we run out and then it takes us a while to restock. Oranges have been really good this winter! But I haven't been eating everything in sight and I've been keeping portions small--my daily calorie intake this week has been between 1300 and 1400 calories.

Thursday Update

Today I weighed in at my lowest weight so far--160.8. I hope that number keeps falling, although yesterday neither my diet nor exercise was that disciplined.

Food Thursday: shredded wheat with 1% milk, pretzels, salad made of lettuce, bean sprouts, carrots, tomatoes, kidney beans, peas, onions, 4 croutons and lite ranch dressing, a chocolate chip cookie, string cheese, 10 bite size tostitos and guacamole dip, and chicken chili with shredded cheese. That adds up to about 1200 calories in my pyramid. I can see I have been lacking fruit. The overall intake isn't too much, but it certainly wasn't a good balance.

Exercise was poor--I was pretty tired so I walked for 20 minutes on the treadmill for about 150 calories, and then did a little less than half of the MTV Pilates dvd, and it was all the easy moves. Hopefully today I will be more energized to exercise longer.

Where is everyone? It was lonely here yesterday with just Amy & I...

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Two steps forward one step back

Or actually - four pounds down two pounds up. That seems to be my pattern. Sadly - what I tend to do is see myself losing and start to get lazy - and then when the weight catches up to me, it catches up A LOT and suddenly. I do think a lot of it is related to my period - but I can really make no excuses. It shouldn't MATTER that I am feeling munchie all the time - I should STILL resist. Or it shouldn't matter that I am craving cookies, or crunchie stuff - I should eat yogurt or vegetables.

Anyway - I have been HORRIBLE the past few days. I didn't work out on Tuesday - and planned to do a double yesterday - but then the weather was so yicky I didn't stray far from home - and so blew it off again. Sigh.

Starting about Monday night I was wanting to eat everything in sight! I mostly stuck with "healthy" foods - but an excess of pistachios, Special K snacks and almonds are still EXCESS calories. I am afraid to list it all out - because I think it may be worse than I think - but actually, listed out in my head it isn't TOO terrible. Not enough fruit, not enough vegetables.

Today my weight showed all of my badness - it was 206.4. UGH! I am hoping it will drop again like it does after my period ends - but I don't think it will drop more than 2 pounds. Of course, this has been a particularly bad period from every aspect - so maybe it will be excessive in the post weight drop too. I can only hope. Well - it was a four pound drop last month (209.2 to 205.2) ...so maybe.

My goal today is to get myself back on track for exercise and eating!

The amazing shrinking woman?

Gravity has been having a constant pull all this week, but I think I am becoming more compact. I was only down .3 lbs this morning from Tuesday. I am wearing pants today that weren't fitting even as of last week. (I'll admit here that I try them on once a week as a test.) I can tell I have lost (or it has re-arranged itself somehow) some fat that was on my lower back above my butt. These pants were fitting weird before because of it since they are sort of low cut with a wider waistband.

Food yesterday, in excruciating detail: shredded wheat with 1% milk, string cheese, an orange, a salad made of lettuce, tomatoes, onions, carrots, bean sprouts, kidney beans, peas, 4 croutons and lite viniagrette, a banana, 6 bite size tostitos dipped in guacamole (dipped, not scooped--it nearly killed me), 2 small hershey's dark chocolates, some rice topped with chicken chili (no beans) and sprinkled with cheese. According to my pyramid, that totals up to about 1250 calories.

Exercise yesterday was 40 minutes on the treadmill for about 300 calories, and then 30 sit ups. I had to tone down the treadmill--my shins are hurting me from upp-ing the incline so I slowed everything down and lowered it to give myself a bit of a break.

I need to eat more today--I only ended up with a net intake of 950 calories after exercising and that's definitely too few. Plus I am starving right now and I have no snacks along today at all. I think I'll go see if there are some pretzels in the vending machine.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

I may be topless before the end of the day...

I wore the world's ITCHIEST sweater to work today, and it may just kill me. I should have known better but I was too lazy to walk down to the laundry room for a close fitting t shirt to wear under it...

ANYWAYS...the usual first: food yesterday was shredded wheat, yogurt, a 6"subway turkey on wheat with lettuce, tomato & sweet peppers and FF honey mustard, some baked lays, string cheese, an orange, and spinach & cheese quesadillas for dinner. Exercise was 50 minutes on the treadmill. I wanted to do some sit ups and never got around to it.

Now, goals & accomplishments...My current goal remains what it was in the beginning: I still want to be a size 10, and whatever weight lands me there is ok with me. Outside of clothing sizes, I think I am closer to reaching the goal of being healthier in general. I eat better and certainly exercise more than ever before. I also make concientious food choices--sometimes I might CHOOSE to eat the fat laden treat, but I am making a decision as opposed to before where I just did whatever and rationalized it later rather than counter balancing it with portion control, increased exercise, reduced snacking, etc. That was how I ended up gaining so much weight last year. Rationalizing sure can make you fat! :) Another thing I consider an accomplishment is a shift in my mindset that even slow progress is still progress. I can't lose 2-3 lbs every week, and losing less doesn't give me permission to sabotage myself somehow.

So my short term self-challenge: be strict with my food diary. I've been lax recently. In conjunction with this, I want to use the mypyramid site every day to assess what I am eating so I have an idea of what my daily net caloric intake ends up being.

I readjusted

This morning my weight did go back up a pound, so I don't have Sarah's tapeworm. I also do still have color controls, though I usually forget to use them.

I did succeed in exercising yesterday, though I dragged my feet about it until after dinner. Then I did the Pilates for Dummies beginner workout. I knew most of the exercises from my other tape, though not all, but that meant it seemed like a lot of talking and not much exercising. But they had some form points that helped.

Yesterday I had my usual breakfast, and lunch of yogurt and a slice of bread and margarine, and dinner of two slices of leftover pizza (and now the pizza's all gone). I had about eight girl scout cookies yesterday, which is really an improvement, though still pretty sad, and I had snacks of almonds, string cheese (but Cecilia helped eat it), one chocolate orange wedge, and an apple wedge. I ate a small piece of cake after dinner though I didn't really want it -- why did I do that? I also had a glass of wine and some slices of cheddar (and Cecilia helped on those, too -- she loves cheese) for an evening snack.

Today I'm going to be even more careful about the cookies (mostly because I'll be out of the house during my worst temptation time) and dinner will be a healthier taco soup instead of pizza. Daniel and I will be meeting at the gym this afternoon, so I'm guaranteed exercise today as well!

Maybe I have a tapeworm

This morning my weight was 133.6. Now, I was thinking that yesterday's 134.4 was a bit low and I'd probably readjust as of this morning, but instead I was lower. Of course, after my shower I was back to 134.4, so maybe that WAS an accurate weight. Or maybe I have a tapeworm and am able to lose weight rapidly.

Yesterday's food was fine again--egg and toast for breakfast, my usual lunch and snacks, leftover black beans and rice for dinner, and three cookies in the evening. I went to the gym and burned off 300 calories on the treadmill. Today I had oatmeal for breakfast, but I packed a slice of leftover pizza for lunch (wouldn't want it to go bad) and I don't yet know if I'm going to make it to the gym--I'm having an emergency at home. My coffee grinder broke and I only have enough ground coffee left to last me until tomorrow, so I have to get out to get a new one (otherwise I'd have to use a hammer), which means going out at lunchtime either today or tomorrow. If I get the chance, I want to go today in case something comes up to prevent me from going tomorrow.

Has anyone else had their post appearance options diminished? Last night I couldn't do anything to make my post look better (no font or color options). This morning my only choices are to change the font to bold or italics, add a link or image, insert a block quote, or check spelling. So this post will be boring black again.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

My own goals

My original goal, as Amy stated, was to reach 135 pounds, my marriage weight. After looking at BMI and healthy body calculators I think my new goal, after I get there, is going to be 130 pounds, and then to maintain a weight within two pounds of that either direction, I hope indefinitely. That would put me smack in the middle of the ideal weight range for my height.

I have lost a lot of weight in five and a half months, and I have also made exercise a consistent part of my life in that time (weeks like this past one notwithstanding). I have three days a week where the exercise is pre-scheduled. That also makes it much easier to make myself exercise on the "off" days, so in a normal week I'm getting four to five days of exercise now. I need to make it my goal to get that to a consistent five days, and to work more of a strength element into that. I am stronger than I was last summer because I'm more fit overall, but I haven't really focused on that. I need to figure out how to do strength and cardio on the same day!

My eating is better than it used to be in that I am much more aware of what I'm eating and when, though more often than not that doesn't stop me from eating foods I shouldn't! I frequently offer Mary her choice of snacks, and she chooses fruit over a cookie at least half the time -- but I don't! I should make it my rule that if Mary doesn't eat it, I don't, either. In some ways my food choices have improved -- I have cut out about 90% of the macaroni and cheese lunches (but I always sneak a bite or two) in favor of whole grains, and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches have become a rarity, as I usually choose lean lunchmeat sandwiches -- only sometimes with cheese -- or yogurt and toast. My breakfasts didn't really need improving, and my dinners have hardly changed. My snacking changed, but it has changed back. So my goal on this needs to be to change my snacks back!

Sorry for all the boring self-analysis! I just have to remind myself that I have made progress aside from the weight loss, but that there's still room to improve. I do know I'm going to have to keep blogging my health for the rest of my life, or all my bad habits will creep back in.

Goals and new goals

My original goal was to get down to 140, my pre-pregnancy weight. My ultimate goal was to get and keep my weight in the 130 to 135 range. As of today, that's where I am (just barely). But now my goals are more specific--I want to get rid of that damn belly fat (ugh! It's much better than before, but I predicted when I was 140ish that it would go away around 130, and I don't think that's true anymore. I think a lot of it is stretched out skin, not fat, and is here to stay.) and to improve my running so I can keep up a steady pace of 5 m.p.h. or higher for 30 minutes. That's not a real stretch (I can easily do 4.8 m.p.h. and break into 5.2 to 5.3 for three or four minutes at a time), so once I get up to that, I'll set a new goal. Three miles in 30 minutes might be that one, but I don't know if a 37 year old who was never a very good runner could do that. My best pace, back when I was rowing, was 5 miles in an hour.

Weigh-in Weeks

I'm ALIVE!!!! I am SO sorry I haven't been around in the last month. Our school (for those of you who don't already know the story) has blocked all blogging websites because of reports of badness happening to kids on blogs (particularly things like My Space and the kid-oriented ones that get a lot of dirty old men reading them). So I can no longer access our blog from school. And I never think of it when I get home! I have been still dieting and weighing-in and so forth, but I have to say I don't know if I'm going to go back and read the 150 or so posts that I missed. Sorry.

So here are my weigh-ins for the last month. Four weeks ago I was 134 even. Then the next week I was up to 135.6. Then down the following week to 135 even. Today I hit 135.8. Going the wrong way!! I was really lazy this past week, though, and had dinner out for Valentine's day, two big drinking nights for Amy's birthday, and a big dinner for Amy's birthday as well, so I guess a 0.8 weight gain in the last week isn't too bad.

So looking back at my original goals I said I wanted to be 130 by Christmas, but I'd settle for 135. hee hee. Well, I'm only off by 2 months. That's not THAT bad! In revising my goals at this point, I have decided that my next goal is to break the 130 mark. Ideally I'd like to ultimately get down to a final weight of 125, but I don't know if I'll ever see that number again. I will count myself as fully successful if I simply break 130, but I won't stop there if I can help it. We'll have to see what my body does.

I need to, also, start working out more consistently. With Amy going to the gym I don't have her as a back-up motivation, so I need to find a way to motivate myself. Any suggestions?

What is your goal anyway?

I had to go all the way back to September, Emily, to find out what you goal actually IS. It is 135 - your wedding weight. That is a good goal - and I really think you could make it by March 18th - or pretty darn close!

So - I decided that it is time for us to state our goals again. Not our mini ones... we are pretty good at stating them, but our mid-range/long term goals. Sarah and Emily are almost to their original goals. Katie too - I think - if she would just "weigh-in" again. You three have to come up with "new and improved" goals now. Not necessarily weight loss goals anymore - but health related ones none-the-less.

OK - My turn first then. My original weight in September was 215.4. My goal (I think) was to lose 55 pounds - or 55.4 to be exact. I was shooting for 5 pounds a month - which would have put me where I needed to be in one year's time.

To Date (today to be exact): I have lost 10.60 pounds. The lowest I have been on a weigh-in day was 202 even (last week). The lowest I have been on a non-weigh-in day was 201.8. I have lost an average of about 2 pounds a month - but one month I went up and one month I stayed the same... So when I am actively LOSING it is closer to the 5 pounds a month.

My goals: To keep chipping away at the 55.4 pounds. The hurdle that I am shooting for is to leave "obease" behind and become "overweight" for a while. My ongoing goal is to LOSE each month. No more of this going up, or staying the same business for me.

What I HAVE accomplished: Well, I have lost 10 pounds (and a little more). I have lost one of my spare chins. I have dramatically improved my eating habits and I actually WORK OUT on a regular basis. I bought a new pair of gym shoes for the first time in years because I actually WORE OUT my old ones. 8-) With the exception of my monthly bloating - I feel good about myself. I am mostly pleased that I have stuck with this for this long.

That's it in a nutshell. I hope you all will play along and re-state/up-date your accomplishments and goals.

Lucky weigh-in!

I was 139.5 today! I've been higher the last several days so I wasn't counting on being below 140, but I am, and that's a first for an official weigh-in! Hooray! But (as I said to Daniel, too) this means I have to work really hard to make it stick and not to see an upswing for next week. It's so much easier to be lazy!

Yesterday I went to the gym and did 45 minutes on the bike. I started at level 6 (this is on the "fat burner" workout I always do -- if I just do manual, level 6 is really, really hard) and initially I could feel the flimsiness of my muscles after 5 days away, but it felt good before long, and I did part of the workout at a higher level because my heart rate was being so well-behaved. Even at the higher level it never ventured above 170.

Today I'm planning to try the Dummies DVD -- I've had it for a week and haven't had an opportunity to touch it!

My eating yesterday was terrible. I had my usual breakfast, but then I had about seventy bazillion Girl Scout cookies during the day. Ugh. I also had three slices of chocolate orange, most of a real clementine (February clementines aren't as yummy as December ones, though), a wedge of an apple, a small piece of pizza for lunch, two small pieces of pizza for dinner, a cupcake, a smallish slice of birthday cake, a piece of string cheese, and about a dozen almonds. The almonds and the string cheese were early in the day when I still had hope of eating healthy foods all day -- I think the onset of the cookies came after the lunchtime cupcake.

Today I've had my usual breakfast (I was even especially virtuous and had raisin bran), plus a wedge of apple (swiped from Mary). No junk food yet. I wonder how long I can make this last today?

I'm wanting to hit my goal weight before March 18. That's the date of the school fundraiser casino night and last year a lot of the women showed up looking really snazzy (I was in maternity clothes, and I just wore pants and a niceish top -- I looked too casual). If I can meet my goal weight I'm allowed to buy a new dress for this! I'm also waiting on buying new jeans until I hit the goal weight, and my jeans are all huge on me now (and, by and large, completely shot -- most of them were purchased in the mid-90s), so the sooner, the better!

Weigh in for me

I had a glorious 4 day weekend so I barely touched the computer at all, and totally refused to read email until today...

Let's see...weigh in today marks me at 161.5, which disappoints me a little b/c I feel skinnier than that. I spent most of my weekend shopping and clothes are fitting me better, so I figured I'd be in the 160ish range, but oh well, I'm working my way there.

Food hasn't been very good or balanced, but the quantity has been in check. Friday I had shredded wheat for breakfast, a cinnabon for lunch and then pasta sprinkled with parmesan cheese for dinner. Saturday I had shredded wheat for breakfast, a hot dog for lunch at Joe's nephew's birthday party, and then we ate at Silver Spring Mining Co for dinner and I had chicken fajitas. We split a crab pretzel as well, and got dessert to go. Sunday I had toast for breakfast, a salad for lunch and leftover crab pretzel and chicken & dumplings for dinner. Monday it was shredded wheat for breakfast, an aunt annie's pretzel for lunch and then leftover chicken & dumplings for dinner. So lots of junk, but not anything in great quantities. I guess now looking at all that stuff written out my 161.5 is pretty good.

I exercised every day for 50 minutes on the treadmill, which equals 400 calories burned each time. I need to add back the pilates dvd, but it is boring to me now. I need to try out a new one from netflix I guess. I also spent a TON of time shopping Friday and Monday and I swear I walked a few miles doing that. I was so exhausted by the time I got off the treadmill last night. My biceps were KILLING me from carrying all the shopping bags too. That is kind of funny. Although--the one bag I was carrying Friday had 3 of the large Yankee candles in it plus a huge container of bath salts in a glass jar for Marian's birthday.

Back to the drawing board

Or the treadmill as the case may be...

OK - I weighed in today regardless of the fact that I am STILL feeling too full from all I ate over the past few days. I was at 204.8. That is a pound less than yesterday - and back to where I was on weigh-in day 2/7. I am not TOO concerned. My period STILL hasn't started, so I am still retaining water and everything else. I have one more weigh in day before the end of February. I COULD still lose 5 pounds for the month... Well, maybe not... I was 204.2 on 2/1. OH! But I use the 6th as my start... OK, well, not much better - I was 205.2 on 2/6. BUT - I COULD be 200.2 on 3/6 - If I don't eat too much the first day of the cruise. 8-) I wonder if they will have a scale available for us? I have become obsessive about weighing myself everyday.

Yesterday I came home from work and ate a bowl of soup and toast for dinner. I was still too full from the cake I ate all day. BUT - by 11pm I was starving - and craving protein (NO wonder!). I had a small handful of almonds and string cheese.

I am already off track today. We are having bagels for Lynne's birthday. I usually say no to the bagels - but I ate one today. Well - I will not eat the cereal (obviously) or the bread I brought to go with my lunch soup. I know it won't balance the bagel out entirely - but it is something. I bring such spare lunches, there really isn't much I can cut out easily. I will skip the afternoon yogurt too. That might make it all better.

Weigh in day

134.4 this morning! Woo-hoo! That's within my "ultimate goal" range, although I'm not sure how accurate it is since I've been fluctuating a lot between 134.8 (my lowest daily up until now) and 136ish. I would have been happy with anything in the 135 range, so this is much lower than I expected. But I kept stepping off the scale and then stepping back on, then moving the scale to a different spot on the floor and reweighing myself, and each time it came up 134.4. Can I go have some carrot cake now? ;-)

I wish I could have more days like yesterday--even though I didn't get to the gym, I DID get some exercise in at night (pilates, of course) and I was able to stick to my diet without feeling at all deprived. I let myself have three chocolate chip cookies over the course of the day so I'd get some kind of treat, but other than that it was all healthy stuff--all my usual breakfast, lunch, and snacks, then another omlette with two cups of vegetables for dinner. Why is it that some days it's very easy to eat like that and other days I just want to eat everything in sight?

Did anyone watch the ski jumping last night (or any night)? I was looking at the weight and height of some of those guys and was amazed--they are ALL beanpoles! One guy was 6'1" and 148 pounds, another was 5'9" and 132!!! Can you imagine being three inches taller than me and several pounds lighter, and a guy? They must have no muscles at all except what they need to land.

Monday, February 20, 2006

More Ugh!

Well - I went to the gym and did my resistance workout. I should have done cardio again today because I really feel like right now I need to be burning fat rather than building muscle. I actually need to do BOTH - but I only have time for one or the other. But I still had a lump of lead carrot cake sitting in my stomach - and I really didn't want to throw up on the cross trainer - so I did my weights instead. I actually think the carrots must have given me strength because many of my normal weights seemed a little on the light side today. I may have to bump them up some more. I know I was still struggling on Thursday - but today, not so much.

Anyway - back at work Lynn H said she was doing a coffee run for my birthday (I got a skim vanilla latte) and then Suzanne said that she was going to have more cake with her coffee. Melanie told me I had a lot of cake to finish off. Sigh - So I ate another (smaller) piece and once again didn't finish it. It is SO rich. The 1510 calories for this cake is based on a 14oz piece. I really don't think I ate anywhere near almost a pound of cake - even combining my two pieces - but it was STILL way too many calories!!! YUM!

Can I not weigh in tomorrow?

Joining the club

That's the "eating everything in sight" club. I was pretty unrestrained this weekend, although looking back the total wasn't THAT bad because I kept my portions in check and tried to balance overeating at meals with no snacking. But I didn't keep track of my calories and didn't exercise AT ALL, and that was after a really bad week when I only got to the gym twice and only did pilates twice. Maybe three times. But not nearly enough.

So I'm trying to remember what all I ate--on Saturday morning I only had coffee at home so I could eat at brunch, and then at brunch I had a little bit of everything but really just a little bit--small scoop of eggs, two slices of bacon, a spoonful of fruit, a piece of pastry. Everything was really good and it was the sort of food where I'd happily finish all of it off, but I didn't. I also had just a small slice of the carrot cake. At home, I wasn't hungry again until dinnertime, and then I was feeling so guilty about all the breakfast that I made myself an omlette with a cup each of spinach and broccoli. So at least I got in a lot of veggies! Then I went out and had two drinks--a beer and an Irish coffee and munched on some popcorn and breathed in secondhand smoke. Not the healthiest night.

Sunday was kind of a repeat of Saturday--no breakfast except coffee. We ate a late lunch at McDonalds and I always get a grilled chicken salad with lowfat balsamic vinagrette, but then I ate a bunch of Brian's fries, and on the way home we went to JoAnns and we all got candy bars (I got a package of Necco wafers, thinking they wouldn't be so bad in the calorie and fat department, but there's 220 calories in a package). Dinner was pizza--I had two slices AND a beer. Sigh.

On Sunday morning I didn't even weigh myself, and that was by choice--I didn't want to see the numbers. But this morning wasn't too bad--I was 135.4 when I was prepared to see 137. Today I'm determined to starve myself so I'll stay around 135 for tomorrow! But I'm already off to a bad start with exercise--Claire is spending the afternoon with me at work (no school, her daycare is closed) so I spent my lunch break picking her up and obviously can't get to the gym with her here. Last week I kept saying I'd make up for my lack of exercise and never did. OTOH, if all goes well we'll have a 14 week old puppy in our house next weekend and THEN I'll get some exercise!

UGH!!!

I am so disgusting!! This morning my weight was 205.8!! I haven't been that high in almost a month! I am so bloated from my (still) looming period that I feel like I am going to pop! I am sore and crampy - and sort of cranky, but I have been worse. I ate EVERYTHING in sight this weekend - and if I didn't eat it I drank it! ACK!

Friday night Katie and I went to J. Patrick's (Irish bar downtown). I snitched a mozzerella stick from Heather and Katie and I ordered a fish and chips platter. We split one filet and let Charles eat the rest. We drank what I think must have been an amazingly fattening Irish coffee. However my weight was down on Saturady morning to 202 even.

We started my birthday with a couple of lattes made on Katie's new espresso machine. We mixed them with different flavors of hot cholcolate to make them mochas. We then went to mom and Dad's for brunch. I was pretty well behaved there. I had three pieces of bacon, one piece of pastry, some of the egg casserole and fresh fruit. I just had skim milk in my coffee - and of course we had carrot cake for birthday cake.

I originally planned to work out after brunch - but I also originally planned to have an early night on Friday night. THAT didn't happen. I went home and took a nap.

We went to Bonefish for dinner Saturday night. I had pistachio encrusted rainbow trout with potatoes au gratin and a house salad. I ate the whole salad and half of the filet, but almost none of the potatoes. Then I had creme brulee for dessert. Katie and I split it and we still left about half behind. This is a big improvement over how we used to lick the bowl clean!!!

I didn't eat anything at the Friendly Inn afterwards - but I think I had four drinks total. Luckily they are small ones! When we got home on Saturday I ate the rest of my potatoes from dinner.

It wasn't until Sunday that I started getting really bad. My weight was 203.4 Sunday morning. I didn't eat anything until lunch time - and I had my leftover fish. Then all Sunday afternoon I had the worst munchies! I ate a serving of pistachio nuts, and THREE of the 90 calorie snack packs I was telling you about the other day. I was also super thirsty and so drank a ton of water. Then, I wasn't hungry at dinner time. Katie ate her leftovers from the night before, and much later I made a mini pizza, with both sausage and pepperoni!!!! I think that was all I ate - but that was enough!!!!! Too much!

I came into work today determined to get myself back on track with food. I had my Lucky Charms with skim milk and coffee with skim milk for breakfast. Then they had my birthday cake at work. Weren't we just talking about the Cheesecake Factory Carrot Cake on Saturday? Well - now I know WHY it is their highest calorie cake!! 8-) Boy was it good! I did try to cut myself a SMALL piece, adn I didn't finish it all. So maybe I only ate 1000 calories instead of 1600!

Sigh - I am doomed!

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Easy go, easy come

This morning my weight was right back up to 142. How depressing.

Yesterday I had my usual breakfast, though slightly smaller. For lunch I had a piece of fried chicken (KFC, courtesy Daniel's parents) but didn't finish it. I had three wedges of chocolate orange in the afternoon. We went out for dinner, and I had one and a half crabcakes (kinda dry) with a bit of a baked potato with margarine, and a caesar salad. And a bottle of Newcastle. I think that was pretty much it for me for food yesterday! I desperately need to get back to exercising and to eating proper meals -- today I have been grazing all day, and on nothing healthy. I'm having a hard time feeling motivated to exercise when I'm still somewhat tired from this past week, but I know I'll feel better if I do get moving.

Tomorrow we're back into our regular week, so I need to make it a fresh start (again!).

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Quick (but not easy) weight loss

I haven't been posting because I've been sick for the last two days. On Thursday, Alexander's birthday, I spent half the day making a cake and two dozen cupcakes. By late afternoon my stomach was off but I thought it was because I'd been around sugar all day -- whenever I spend a lot of time making sweets I don't want much to do with them by the time I'm finished! But long before dinner it was clear that I was genuinely ill, and I was sick to my stomach that night -- I did try eating some dinner but that was a mistake. But I wasn't allowed to stay sick, since Daniel came down with it 5 hours later and was in much worse shape than I was, so yesterday I had to function more or less normally -- but I barely ate anything and I certainly didn't have the energy to exercise. Today I'm in much better shape, and my appetite is more or less normal, but I'm still fatigued. Ugh. My weight this moring was 139.5 (138.5 after my shower, wet hair and all) -- so if I just eat sensibly for three more days I can register a new loss for the week, but I really wish I'd done it the normal way.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AMY!!

Friday, February 17, 2006

Preparing for the weekend

I just got back from the gym. Normally on the treadmill and the cross trainer I set it on manual and chug along at an even, moderate pace for my 35-40 minutes. Well - this time (inspired partially by the fact that I have decided that I want to marry Seth Wescott - the snowbordercross gold medal winner - who practices in Alaska ((They drop him on top of a mountain and he works his way down)) and is also building a house from scratch in the mountains of Maine) I decided I would try one of the set programs that include portions of pretty high inclines. Well in my usual amount of time I burned about a hundred calories more. My hair was dripping wet when I was done - but I didn't feel any more tired than I usually do. I was pretty impressed. My feet were numb by about 23 minutes and I finished with 11 minutes on the treadmill at a slower pace and higher incline. It was a good workout.

Where is everyone?? It seems like the past couple of days it has just been me posting on the blog during the day. Are all you skinny minis quitting on me???

Again Already?

I can't tell - but it seems like my period is about to start. For a normal person that probably would be about on schedule - but for me I usually go about 31-33 days in between. Well - my weight is showing it (and I am having other pre-lim symptoms) I was 203.6 today. Of course, that could be because of the no pizza yesterday. For the first time in FOREVER I didn't eat pizza. I had incredibly yummy grilled salmon with veggies last night for dinner. The food during the day was my typical stuff - then I had a bedtime snack of yogurt with almonds (but the yogurt was actually left over from my lunch).

I worked in the DC last night for about 2.5 hours. My back is really sore now. I need a massage!! Or at least a heating pad. It could also be sore from my workout at the gym yesterday - but I don't think that would be it. Of course, my abs are a little sore too - so maybe I did work harder yesterday. I do know I was trying to make my workout more effective - you know, concentrating on the muscles that I was working. I find this actually makes the workout easier in many ways - I guess it IS more effective too.

Today is the last day to enter to win my dream home. Sigh. I am going to miss entering everyday - but I don't suppose I will miss it once I win the actual home!! 8-) Yippee!!

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Diet Snack Food

I just had the best snack food! If you haven't already tried it - you should check it out. Special K Snack Bites. I have the vanilla one - but they have other flavors too. I was expecting it to be something like a crushed up rice krispie treat - but it wasn't. They were like sweet wheat crackers with granola bits on them. The little bag was only 90 calories - and it was more substantial than the little 100 calorie pack stuff.

A New Holding Pattern

OK - Better than the last one - but I seem to be stalled at 202. Today was 202.2, yesterday was 202.0 and that is the way it has been for the past week or so.

It is all my fault. I have definitely been on the all pizza diet. I have a mini pizza for lunch and a french bread pizza for dinner. Well, darn it! They are quick and easy, and tasty, and it has tomato sauce and all! Sigh. At least I am not gaining.

I went to the gym yesterday for the first time since Friday. I shovelled on Sunday - but otherwise my exercise has been down lately too. I WILL start gaining if I don't kick myself in the rear now! I am going to the gym today!! And I will stick to my better food for the rest of the week. Saturday is my birthday (as you all know) and I am fairly sure I will be bad. Well - I will go to the gym after brunch. Sunday I will probably skip, although I think I will probably need the workout most then. 8-)

I have also been bad about working in the DC. I have been shooting for 10 hours every paycheck. So far I have done NONE this time. I HAVE to work tonight - and I have to do a lot of hours next week, because this will be the last check before the cruise and I want to have the spare money!!!

17 days until the cruise!! Sorry to gloat, but I am getting very excited. Sarah and I plan to workout every day on the cruise, but I make no promises about the food thing.

Yesterday wasn't much better

My evening yesterday was all messed up again, after a healthy day. I got a flat tire on the way home from work so that messed up my schedule--getting it changed and the car going again took a half an hour, then I had to go straight to Sam's Club to get a new tire and THAT took an hour and a half. While we were there, Claire and I got pizza for dinner and I had a chocolate chip cookie as well. So really unhealthy, high fat and calorie food. We got home when it was getting close to bedtime and Connor still hadn't had any food, so I had to make him dinner before we could get on with the bedtime routine. So bedtime was late--Claire didn't get her lights off until about 11:00 (she was WAY behind on reading for school so we were trying to catch up last night with a couple of long books). And then on top of all that, I pulled a muscle in my shoulder while trying to change my tire (unsuccessfully, I might add--I couldn't get the damn lug nuts to budge, but while trying to move them, I injured myself). At least I hope it's just a muscle. But it was killing me last night and is still really hurting today, even after three ibuprofens. If I inhale too deeply it hurts. So I ended up not exercising last night either. I *do* have my gym stuff today, so that'll happen at least. And barring another weird evening, my eating today should be better.

Wednesday Update

Yesterday was not so good foodwise. I had my normal breakfast these days--shredded wheat--and then a yogurt when I got to work. Snack was string cheese and an orange. BUT the salad I brought for lunch was nasty by lunchtime. I'm not really sure what happened to it b/c it wasn't wilted when I made it but it was almost rotting by noon. SO I had seafood stew from Au Bon Pain. It was really high in protein, and not too bad on fat, but it left the yuckiest taste in my mouth. I ended up getting some snackwells out of the vending machine around 3 pm. Then I met a friend for dinner at Applebees, and I had the lime chicken and that was icky. I felt like I was going to throw up the whole way home, but never did.

I got home late so I didn't exercise at all yesterday.

I'm on track today--same breakfast and yogurt, and I packed my lunch. I don't know what dinner will be tonight though. I didn't take anything out of the freezer so it'll have to be a let's dish item that goes straight from the freezer to the pan.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

More rewards for bad behavior

I wish today was weigh-in day! My weight this morning was 134.8 (and then 134.2 after my shower)! Why didn't I even come close to that yesterday? Grrrr. And the likelihood that I'll be able to maintain that until next week is very low.

Yesterday, as usual, I was good all day (the usual breakfast, the usual lunch, the usual exercise. Ho-hum.) and horrible at night. Worse than horrible, actually. I never got around to dinner at all. I went straight from daycare to Mom and Dad's house, stopping by McDonalds for Happy Meals for the kids. In the car, I snacked on some of the unsafe goodies Claire got at school (cherry gumdrops--yum), then at Mom and Dad's I snagged a few french fries, then went to the mall to get a new computer (yay!!!) and ate a Godiva chocolate bar (worth every one of the 210 calories) then ate more french fries the kids hadn't eaten, and then when I got home I ate some conversation hearts and one whole wheat cracker. That was it. Nothing but junk. Although I was really hungry at bedtime so I think that calorie-wise, it was low for the day. But it was low calories entirely from sugar and fat.

I'm not going to get to the gym today. I was running really late this morning and couldn't find a clean shirt, so I left my gym bag at home. I'll make it a pilates day and do the gym tomorrow and Friday. Ooh, probably not Friday--we've got a hearing and speech agency meeting with Connor at 1:30 that day. So that means I'll have to fit in an aerobic workout on Saturday or Sunday sometime.

Wednesday

My weigh-in yesterday was 148.5. I kept pretty busy flying around the house getting ready for Aunt Carol''s visit. I ate pretty much as usual, and we had twice leftover Hamburger Helper for supper,along with green beans and lettuce salad. We were baby-sittung Claire and Connor briefly and Sarah brought us each a Godiva candy bar--yummy--and if that was't decadent enough, Melissa, our wallpaper lady, brought us each a heart shaped chocolate lollipop with pretty decorations on it. She makes them and sells them--a very enterprising woman.

This morning I had a seven o'clock dental appt and the dentist merely glued back on the crown that came off in my pizza last Saturday! Yea! No new crown! Then we did two grocery stores and went to I-Hop for a very bad breakfast--eggs, bacon, hash browns which I only partly ate and three pancakes! Then we did one more grocery and Rite-Aid and came home. Now I want to clean the entire downstairs before seeing Dick's GI this afternoon. At least that is some exercise!

Extra exercise

Starting Monday, I upped my exercise to where I burn 400 calories on the treadmill. I do the 30 minute program for 250, and then I spend another 20 minutes walking at 3.5 mph at a lower incline (4 or 5 usually) to get the extra 150. I did that Monday and Tuesday. I'll miss exercise tonight because I am meeting a friend for a birthday dinner and that's not until 6:30.

Food yesterday was: shredded wheat with 1% milk for breakfast, string cheese for a morning snack, french onion soup (no cheese or bread in it) and a breadstick for lunch, an orange for an afternoon snack, and then a handful of these twizzler bites with gooey sugar in the middle. This guy had them at work and they were soooo tasty while we were plotting out maps for a data delivery today. thoughtless eating, really. Dinner was let's dish carolina bbq and baked beans. For my birthday, we made the let's dish lava cakes. Yum.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

141.5

So that's my lowest official weight yet, though not my lowest ever. It does put 139.5 in range for next week, which would be really exciting! But I haven't exercised since Friday (though I did shovel out half the driveway on Sunday morning, which might count for something). I've been a bit more careful about food in the last two days. Well, I was careful yesterday, anyway; I did restrict my cookie-eating to two after lunch (one low-fat!) and two after dinner.

Today I was too busy to overeat, most of the day, though I snuck in some extra thin mints in late afternoon. And for lunch I had (I'm ashamed to admit!) Ramen noodles! No nutrition and all kinds of horrible things in them -- I was in a rotten mood and we were out of bread (the kids got the last of it on their sandwiches; I have a loaf thawing now) and I wanted something hot, and I discovered these were in my cabinet (I get occasional cravings for them when I'm pregnant, so this package had been hanging around for nine months or so). I did share them with the kids, and I don't use all the seasonings. But they're still irredeemably bad. Good thing dinner was high fiber taco soup -- I needed something vaguely healthy today!

Tomorrow I will finally get to the gym; it's our usual Wednesday schedule, so we squeeze it in between piano and swim lessons. And I'll try to be more sensible with my eating at all meals!

Katie - where are you???

We haven't gotten a weigh in from Katie since January 24th - after her major loss due to sickness. My theory is that she gained it all back and is now trying urgently to lose it again before she post. HA! Katie - we are on to you!! Additionally, I am going to make up weights for my chart unless you come up with something soon!!!!

161.8

So I'm down from last week but up from my low the previous week. Given how much I ate out last week, I am still pretty pleased with this number. I ate out 6 times since last weigh in, including a bingeful night of drinking Friday night. Have you ever had a girl scout cookie shot? They come in oatmeal cookie and thin mint. That would be a girl scout cookie diet I would consider...

Exercise has been scarce since last weigh in day too. I got back on track Sunday and yesterday though. Unfortunately I have not been rewarded for bad behavior...guess my metabolism isn't there yet. I eat junk and I gain like crazy. I was actually into the upper 164s this past Friday.

Congrats to all of you for your weights this week. Keep it up!!!!

136.2

Not my lowest weight of the week (I was really hoping to be in the 135 range!) but a half pound down from last week, so I can't really complain.

I didn't last on my "no refined sugar" challenge. The lure of conversation hearts was too much for me yesterday evening. The rest of my food for the day was o.k.--I had to buy lunch in the cafeteria so I got fire roasted corn soup (which wasn't as good as its name sounds and was kind of oily) and a small salad. Snack in the afternoon was half an apple and string cheese. Dinner was fake primavera (spaghetti with alfredo sauce and lots of vegetables). Late in the evening (after the Olympics were over) I did a pilates workout. I didn't make it to the gym yesterday because of my cancelled lunch meeting--instead of using work time for lunch I had to actually take a break for it so I couldn't take another break for the gym. So I'll go today instead.

Happy Weigh-in VD

Actually today IS a happy weigh in day for me. I was 202.0 this morning! That is 2.8 down from last week. YIPPEEE!!! That is the first substantial weight loss in WEEKS (months maybe...). This morning I really thought I would be up. I was feeling that bloaty feeling that you get when your weight is up. So - maybe that means I am actually LOWER than 202. 8-)

You know - it is like I said on Friday. This is like positive reinforcement for negative behavior. I haven't been to the gym since Friday. I have eaten more pizza than EVER in my entire life. I ate Pop Tarts over the weekend - and last night I woke up at three in the morning - starving - and instead of living off my fat I got up and ate Girl Scout cookies. According to the Body For Life plan you are SUPPOSED to get up and eat in the middle of the night when you wake up feeling hungry. It is supposed to keep your calories evenly supplied (eat every two hours is their plan) and your metabolism working all the time. Well - I know we have established that are metabolisms are working all the time anyway - but it seems to make sense in some way. I don't feel hungry most days, but more often I am waking up hungry. I guess this means I am eating what I need - or less - during the day, and so my body needs refueling at night. Yeah - whatever.

So our next challenge is to think of a food that I can eat in the middle of the night that won't be as bad for me as GS cookies are. I was thinking a hard boiled egg - but I would have to have it peeled and not in the fridge before I go to bed. That is fine - except, how gross is it by morning if I don't get up and eat it? As I said before, in the middle of the night I don't want anything cold or hot. I want room temperature. I don't want anything too dry or liquidy. I am amazingly picky for someone who is mostly asleep. But I think that is the kicker - I don't want anything that will wake me up further. Sigh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIE!!!

Monday, February 13, 2006

All Pizza All the time

Friday we had a team meeting and had pizza for lunch. I at TWO HUGE slices (white pizza and bbq chicken pizza). Then when I got home from happy hour I made another mini pizza. Yum! Saturday I started out the day just fine - but then didn't eat lunch before Let's Dish that afternoon and was SO hungry when I got home. I made one of the chicken quesadillas (sp?) - which is like Mexican pizza. I can't remember what else I ate, but I feel like I was bad. I think I ate a package of Pop Tarts at some point. Then Sunday it was mostly the same - breakfast was fine - mini pizza for lunch, Pop Tarts for a snack and then Chicken and Rosemary Dumplings for dinner. No extra veggie. Oh! I did have green beans with the quesadilla on Saturday.

So food was terrible.

I made up for it in exercise. Oh wait - that was the OTHER Amy - the one who is not me. The only exercise I did on Saturday and Sunday was shoveling snow for about an hour. But it was heavy duty shovelling. I did go to the gym on Friday and did my weights. So that was good.

Anyway - my weight on both Saturday and Sunday was 202.6 and today was 202.8. I am back on track with my good foods today and very hungry right now. I'll bet my weight is up tomorrow.

OH! Someone commented today that my weight loss looks really good. 8-)

Bad, bad, bad weekend!

I had a PMS-induced feeding frenzy this weekend. I was munchy all Friday evening (can't remember what I had; not too much, I think, because there wasn't much around, but I know I kept wanting pretzles and goldfish crackers). On Saturday, I was well behaved all morning--hard boiled egg and toast for breakfast, turkey and lettuce on pumpernickel for lunch, and then I went and bought Valentine's Day candy and ever since then, it's been all downhill. I was reasonable with it on Saturday (I think I had one normal serving size and two half-servings, for a total of about 200 calories of candy) but on Sunday I put it in a centerpiece and snacked all day on candy. Sure was good, though! On Saturday night we had tacos for dinner--I had one large one, heavy on the veggies and light on the cheese, but I did add some sour cream. On Sunday I had a French bread pizza for lunch and stir fried chicken and vegetables for dinner. I didn't drink much water at all, didn't have any fruit, and the only exercise I got was a two mile walk on Sunday (in the snow--it was really pretty) and a bunch of abs exercises while watching the Olympics in the afternoon. This morning I weighed 137! That's quite a jump from 135.8! I'm hoping it's just water retention from my period, but we'll see over the next couple of days. I know at least some of it is from too much candy.

Today I'm giving myself a challenge to stay away from refined sugar for the day. I had Splenda in my coffee (I should have skipped it entirely--unsweetened coffee is better than Splenda!), egg, toast, and fruit for breakfast, almonds for snack a bit ago. I have an apple and string cheese for snack later and have to go find something for lunch. I had a lunch meeting scheduled but it got cancelled so now I have no food. I'll probably go get a salad from the cafeteria, and see what they have in the way of soup. It seems like a good day for soup. The real trick will be to avoid the candy at home tonight.

This makes no sense

I've been on the All-Girl-Scout-Cookie Diet since Saturday morning, when the cookies arrived. I've had no fruit and very few vegetables. I haven't exercised since Friday evening. And now my weight is down to a new low! It was 140.5 when I weighed in, and since that didn't make sense I weighed myself again a minute later and it told me 140.0. I'll take the higher weight for today (they're all unofficial anyway) so that it won't be quite as much of a shock when I hit one seventy-three again tomorrow. ;-)

Today I'm limiting myself to cookies as dessert ONLY, and reasonable portions! I'm going to try to exercise but I'm not counting on having a lot of time for it, as I have a stamping party tonight and I need to get ready for that, and Alexander's sick so getting to the gym would be tricky anyway. This has "long day" written all over it.

Friday, February 10, 2006

Top-notch (bottom-notch?) losers!

I'm so thrilled at all the reports of new weight loss around here! It's been a while since we were losing weight collectively like this. I saw a new low this morning, too, of 142.0. I haven't been eating quite as well as I should -- well, I haven't overeaten, but I haven't been very careful about nutrition. I have managed to exercise three days so far this week -- yesterday I did a walk at home and the Pilates DVD, which is, remarkably, getting less awful each week, even though it is only once a week. The first time I saw improvement I thought I was just remembering it wrong, and maybe it was just getting more familiar. But after that it was decidedly better. I have ordered the Dummies DVD, too, so soon I'll have something else to try.

I really, really don't want to work out today -- I've been around town with the kids for over five hours (preschool pickup, Bible study, swimming, library), so I'm exhausted and Cecilia is sick and cranky and doesn't want to nap. And she hasn't slept well lately because of this cold, which means I'm even more tired than usual. But I'm pretty sure I'll feel better if I do get some exercise. Daniel has gone to the gym without me -- we can't take Cecilia to the childcare room in this state, but he didn't want to miss his third day of exercise this week (he goes MWF) even though his partner was missing! Good for him, but, ugh, that makes it even harder to make myself move.

I'm with Sarah, BTW -- I never really expected to get below 150, since that's the lowest I've seen in a long time, and losing even 20 pounds seemed like an impossible goal, nursing notwithstanding. So to be at 30 pounds' loss and headed for my long-term goal of 135 is incredible!

That's the motivation I need to go put the DVD in!

Pizza as diet food?

So Amy ate pizza a couple of nights ago and has seen her weight drop nicely since then. I had two pieces of pizza last night and this morning I was 135.6. And like Amy, I consider last night a really bad night as far as diet and exercise go--I ate really well throughout the day, but in the evening I had the pizza and no vegetables (because the idea of a salad with vinagrette dressing sounded painful, and without the dressing it just sounded yucky), two rice krispie treats (the small ones, but they are 80 or 90 calories each!), a candy cane, and a glass of milk. And I really didn't want to exercise--I was feeling just achy and tired--but forced myself to do one pilates dvd, half the amount of exercise that I planned. So I expected to see a gain on the scale this morning and was shocked to see that my weight was down.

Seeing that 135 was really cool--less than a pound until I'm within my goal range of 130-135. And can I say at this point that I NEVER thought I'd really get down into the 130's? I'd been at 140 or above for so long now that I figured that's where my body would settle, and I was mentally prepared to hit 140 and just pretty much stay there. But I still have quite a bit of belly fat to lose (it's shrinking, but very slowly. I'm sure I must have six-pack abs in there somewhere, but I can't see the muscle for all the flab on top!) and I think my earlier prediction of seeing that fat gone at around the 130 pound mark was probably wrong. I think there's more than a few pounds of fat there. Yuck.

Remember that I said that I wanted to reward myself with new Twinking H2O paints for losing five pounds? I never got that as a reward, so yesterday I went out and got some as my 20 pound loss reward! Yippee!! Color!

A NEW LOW

Damn! Why isn't today weigh in day??? This morning I was 201.8. I was expecting the pizza from Wednesday to catch up with me on the scale today - but nope! It was nice and low.

This is really too bad because it is like a reward for behaving badly yesterday. I wasn't bad food wise - I ate all of my normal foods, minus the cottage cheese and any of my fruits. Dinner was B-B-Q Shrimp and Country Rice. Then before I went to bed I had two Samoas. So - really food was pretty fine (except the lack of fruit). BUT - I didn't go to the gym again. I have been so tired lately - I am not sure why. But, if I don't get to the gym during the day I am not as inclined to go after work as I have been. I have to make sure to go today - and I hope the snow is really just a big lie so I can go tomorrow too.

My new boss is the type who doesn't look at your face when she talks to you. Well - she USUALLY does, but sometimes she looks lower. I am never sure if she is looking at my necklace or if I have a spot on my shirt. Usually I have a necklace AND a spot - so it could be either - or neither. I don't know.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

I must have done something right

Well - maybe on tuesday. Today my weight was 203.2. Yesterday I was 204. Maybe tomorrow my pizza will show up on the scale. I forgot to mention that when I went to the grocery store Katie and I each had a Caribou coffee - skim - but still, fattening. I didn't get the plain skim latte or the like, but the Turtle mocha. YUM! I also never got to the pilates DVD last night. I did run up and down the stairs several times carrying laundry though.

I am behind already on my food. I JUST ate my cereal about 45 minutes ago. I had my performance review this morning at about 9:15ish, we JUST finished up at 11:30!!! I didn't know what to expect. This is a new boss (since November) so I really didn't know what she thought of me. I am pleased to report that she likes me, thinks I am valuable to the company, and respects my four 10 hour days. She also said that she has a vision for our team and depending on how the company grows for me. She says she sees us developing a "corporate core" made up of me, Kristy and herself. We would be a higher level strategic sort of team - and do less of the day to day administrative stuff. This would be really cool if it came about! I would love to get more into the higher end HR stuff.

That is it for right now. I have to get some work done.

Ouch

I've had a canker sore for three days now--it's right at the front of my mouth where my gums and lower lip come together. And eating anything that isn't very mild and squishy just hurts. Today it seems to be worse--eating salad dressing last night was torture, but today I can't even contemplate my orange. Anything salty, acidic, or crunchy (where little bits get in the area) hurts like hell. What I don't know is how this is going to affect my diet. Yogurt and string cheese are o.k., and I just had leftover bean and pasta stew that wasn't too bad. So maybe this is a good thing--as long as I can stay away from pain-free unhealthy stuff (candy, pudding) and CAN'T eat as much healthy stuff, I'll gain (or lose, as the case may be) from this.

No exercise so far today--it's my day off from the gym--but I'll do a long pilates session tonight. I never got around to the short pilates dvd last night, but this morning my weight was down to 136.4.

Thursday morning

I weighed 147.5 in my nightgown this morning, but after a bath I was 146.5 I do wonder how I can "lose" a pound in the bathtub!

I was sent to a site called fitday.com that I suggest you look at--if you don't use it already! I entered what cereal I had for breakfast and the orange juice, although I only drank a small glass of oj. It has a chart and a graph that lets you know how many calories you've had. It is free, although they do peddle a pay for program that you can install on your own computer. I didn't look at all the features of either plan. Oh--on 17 pages of a list it didn't list my cereal, so I entered the nearest approximation. I could climb the stairs and bring down my own box of cereal and enter in all the data, but that would be time consuming.

Catching Up

This week has been so busy with work I've barely had time to read the posts every day. Yesterday food wise was Ok I think. I didn't add anything up, but I am planning to if I get time later today. I think it was ok because my portions were all pretty much under control. Breakfast was shredded wheat and yogurt, morning snack was an orange, lunch was this icky chicken breast cutlets with icky vegetables with icky rice. I ate one chicken breast and about 2 forkfuls of rice before giving my food away to one of the guys in my section (awards luncheon at work.) Dessert, however, I ate every bite. Apple pie with vanilla ice cream and caramel sauce. Yum. I savored every bite. I ate it apple by apple. Dinner was Let's Dish shrimp scampi and a caesar salad.

The February Let's Dish menu is so yummy!! Marian & I went Tuesday night. The March menu is up too, and I can't wait to get the very veggie steak fajitas. The chicken ones were awesome back in November. That has been my favorite thing so far.

Exercise yesterday was 30 minutes on the treadmill. Program 1 is officially too easy, while program 2 is still too difficult. If it just didn't go up to 6 mph I think I'd be ok, but it stays there too long. I HAVE to download something in between for tonight's workout.

Not related--I recieved an Outstanding Achievement award yesterday at the ceremony. It came with a check for $500, too. That is exciting.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

You can have some of mine!

I have a few hundred to spare I think.

Sigh - I have been very munchie today. Like PMS munchie... but I know that can't be. It must be the cold. My body is trying to get back some of that fat/insulation!!!


Anyway - today I woke up thinking about Pop Tarts. I didn't eat them - which is a huge accomplishment in itself. I did have my normal Lucky Charms with skim milk and coffee (still no sugar - I think I really do prefer it that way now!) A little bit later I had some pistachio nuts (I was reading - I still like to snack when I read, but I am getting better). Then later I had a V-8. All were spaced out well and I was at 399 calories by 2:30. I was hungry and cold at that point. So I decided to make a mini pizza from the fund raiser (we do have to eat them up you know, before they rot!). I did that math - it is only 280 calories per serving - which is half a mini pizza (SO cheating!). Anyway - I knew half was plenty for lunch so I went ahead with it. Sigh - who can eat HALF a mini pizza! Certainly not me! I ate the whole thing.

I had a whole list of errands that I wanted to run today - but I couldn't get myself to budge. I did put my gym clothes on. I didn't go to the gym. When Katie got home we did do our Kick Boxing workout. I don't care if it is only 10 minutes. It really kicks my butt. I wish it was 5 minutes longer though. I can't do 20 minutes (double the workout) but I could use another 5 minutes. I am sitting here right now trying to motivate myself into doing the pilates workout.

So back to the food. I at a whole pizza. Sigh. Then it was almost dinner time. I was good for dinner. I made baked chicken and green beans. But, while it was cooking I ate a 100 calorie pack of chips-ahoy.

I ran to the grocery store tonight and stocked up on V-8, fruit, cottage cheese and milk. And Lucky Charms. Safeway had the mongo boxes on sale, buy one get one free. So I did. That is a lot of marbits!

I just made a batch of chicken rice chowder (Let's Dish) for lunch tomorrow. Katie and I also signed up for the February session. We are getting two of the salmon. They didn't have the salmon in January and we are missing it! Sarah - let me know if you want to split this with us - or even glean off some of ours from January. I think it figures to about $5.50 for a two person pack. I can go over options with you if you want.

So I am at about a million calories today. If you need any of THOSE I will give 'em to you for FREE!

I need a couple hundred calories

Today my breakfast and dinner were different than usual. I had a piece of pumpernickel bread, an orange, and a hard boiled egg for breakfast (VERY filling) and for dinner we were supposed to have pizza, but Claire said she wanted her leftover restaurant pizza, so I had my leftover chicken from the same night. There was no pasta left, so I had it with a spinach salad. So now I'm finished with all of my meals (snacks and lunch were the same) and only at 1049 calories. Maybe I'll make a minibag of popcorn later. Whole grain and yummy, if not entirely nutritious. It's between that an a birch beer (see how good I've been? Those birch beers have been around since my birthday!).

Last night we had bean and pasta stew for dinner. I told Claire is was beans and macaroni and she ate it up--I don't think she would have done the same with the word "stew" in there. Marketing is everything. But I forgot how easy (15 minutes) and healthy that meal is.

Exercise yesterday was two pilates dvd's (upper body, abs); today I ran for 37 minutes between 4.8 and 5 m.p.h. and I'll do another short pilates dvd later. The running felt really good today and I decided not to check my heartrate until the end. At that point it was at 176--still too high, but not terrible and my breathing was great the whole time. So I'm going to keep my workout at roughly that level for a while before building up speed again.

today

Actually, I was very self-controlled last night. I didn't eat a thing during the game, which was very fierce and scary. Duke won, but just barely. I did keep my hands occupied during the commercials, doing some hand pleating for smocking. But I didn't even have carrots!! And I avoided a bedtime snack, and this morning I was down another half pound.

Today I had Life with Yogurt cereal this morning, with orange juice. Lunch I had a half grilled cheese-nonfat--on whole wheat bread, a clementine, and two fig newtons. Then Dad discovered some yummy cookies, small, but chocolate with caramel, on the shelf that we had forgotten about, and I had one of those. I need to toast some almonds, and I'll have a few of those for snack, and dinner tonight will be scallop chowder with carrots and potatoes, and salad. I may bake one of those frozen pies, too, but I'll try to have a small slice.

163.2

I'm up from last week, but I expected that because I have been PMS-ing. I'm pretty sure the extra weight can be attributed to the horns I grow the Friday before my period starts. They should be gone by this Friday :) Some might be the tail, too...

My eating has been atrocious since Sunday, and my exercise has been lacking because I haven't made time to do it. Monday & Friday this week are the only days I can eat the lunch I pack. Yesterday I was at a client site so we ate out, and I totally ignored everything I know about making good food choices. Today is my company's annual awards ceremony and we'll be eating at Hillendale Country Club. But I'm pretty sure that will be yucky (always is) so that is helpful. Tomorrow I have a lunch meeting that will take place somewhere around the Inner Harbor, so who knows what we'll eat.

Sunday I spent 30 minutes on the treadmill. No exercise Monday because I was so exhausted (another PMS pitfall) and we had a meeting with someone about re-doing our kitchen. Last night I was at Let's Dish. Marian & I got done pretty quickly but then we stood in the parking lot in the freezing cold and talked about work. Tonight I will get back on track because there are no commitments AND we have decent food to eat again.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Long Term

Can you believe we have been at this for five months?? It doesn't seem that long. What really amazes me is that I still look forward to reading all of the posts every day. I can honestly say that this blog and the whole group effort mentality has been what has kept me sticking to this diet. So what if I have only lost 10.6 pounds (or whatever) I am eating healthily for the first time since I graduated from college. I am getting enough vegetables and I enjoy them! I am going to the gym virtually every day. I may not weigh less but I have had three people comment in the last week or so about my weight loss. My calves are DEFINITELY firmer. My chin is down to about 1 and a half.

YAY US!!!

By the way - Welcome Back Mom! Where have you been? Katie - are you out there? I need your weight for last week as well as this week for my chart.

Tuesday weigh-in

This morning my scale said 148 before it said LO, so I'll take it! I have been hovering around 150 for quite a while. I stopped to think why I was down, and it is because we have been having workpeople in the house this week, and I don't like to be seen sneaking into the cabinets. And I have a new serger, so I have been extra motivated to sew! Which means I have been spending a lot of time in the basement.

Today I had granola for breakfast and I had yogurt and two fig newtons for lunch. Later I had a clementine and another fig newton. For dinner I had a braised pork chop, mashed potatoes and gravy--I used to make them often and occasionally I get a taste for them and I was out of sweet potatoes for baking--and frozen corn and homemade applesauce. No dessert. Dad wants me to bake one of the pies we have in the freezer, and I want to bake a Texas sheet cake instead to use up some sour milk I have--an experiment--and if I do either one of those I know the consequences will be dire.

I may be up in the morning because of the dinner I had tonight. And as Emily said, Duke plays tonight and I will be hard-pressed not to snack on something. Maybe carrots? Yeah, sure.

Holding steady

at 143.0, and that was just luck. You'll note that I haven't been posting much -- that's because I've been eating so badly, and I didn't exercise Saturday or Sunday. But I exercised yesterday and I'll do it again today. I think that's what's keeping my weight from flying back up when I eat like I have been!

Daniel and I have been eating mostly leftovers, though last night the leftovers I was going to eat seemed to be a bit off, so I microwaved a piece of chicken and put it over a caesar salad, resulting in a healthier dinner than I'd planned, really. We cleaned out the fridge by last night's dinner (everyone else got something decent) so now we're forced to make new foods. Except tonight is Duke-Carolina, so we're having pizza!

Lower

But not lower than my pre-holiday low weight. Today I was 204.8. That is 1.4 down from last week. Yesterday was our 5 month mark - and I was the same as I was for the December weight. But this gets me back below 10 pounds, if I can just STAY there. It was 3.6 down from last month (so still short of 5 pounds for the month, sigh).

I just went to the gym and got my weight workout out of the way. I don't know why it is getting tougher rather than easier! My chest, squats and shoulders kick my butt every time! Bicepts and triceps and abs are getting easier though. That is good.

I plan to work in the DC tonight. I have to do it. There are only two more paydays and four more weeks (less!) until the cruise, so I need to make as much money as possible!!!

136.8

Just a very brief note to report my weight this morning (yay! I'm below the 20 pounds lost mark, and within two pounds of my goal!), my food yesterday (very good until I had a piece of cake at bedtime--that brought me up to 1500 calories for the day), and my exercise (45 minutes between the bike and elliptical machine, then 20 minutes of "maximum burn" pilates at night). And now I have to run to a meeting.

Monday, February 06, 2006

Willful Laziness

Or just complete tireness... I just blew off working out. I got as far as the parking lot at the gym and just couldn't face going in. It wasn't the workout so much that I dreaded - but the idea of having to change just rubbed me the wrong way. So I turned around and went home.

I actually had a pretty stressful day - three major reports due that kept me occupied until the bitter end. I didn't take a lunch break - and didn't even eat the lunch I packed. I didn't have the energy to go into the DC so I decided to hit the gym and then go home. That is where I stalled.

So now I am home and dinner is not magically appearing before me. Bummer. So far today I have eaten my oatmeal with walnuts, about 6 oz of skim milk, coffee, pears with cottage cheese and a V-8. I am very hungry - so I will find something for dinner (I am not sure where Katie is - her car is here... maybe she is asleep...). I will try to keep dinner small to make up for the 300 calories I am NOT burning at the gym right now.

Too bad too - tomorrow is weigh-in day. I was 204.2 on both Saturday and Sunday this weekend - but today I was 205.2. I guess I probably won't be lower tomorrow.

Huh?

On Saturday I posted a long entry, mostly about my frustration at still being at a pretty low fitness level in spite of four or five months of regular exercise, and now it's gone. The entry, that is. I know it was here--after posting it I was reading through it and thought I should have chosen a different color because everyone recently has been posting in green--but by Saturday afternoon I couldn't find it, so I looked in the list of posts to see if it had somehow changed it to a draft and it's not there either! I'm so irritated!

But the gist of it was that on Friday I tried a new workout on the treadmill that has you doing intervals of two minutes each at 2% incline--first at 4 m.p.h. and then at 6 m.p.h. and you keep that up for 40 minutes. I kept it up for eight minutes. Six m.p.h. gets my heart rate up to a dangerous level (upper 170s), so I kept scaling back the workout, first lowering the speed down to 5.5 m.p.h., then 5.3 m.p.h., then I lowered the incline, then I gave up entirely and just jogged the rest of the time at 4.7 to 5 m.p.h. OTOH, the "beginner" version would be too little for me (40 minutes at 3.5 m.p.h.) so at least I'm a little beyond that. But I don't know how to improve my stamina.

Also on Friday I did the pilates ball workout. It was o.k., not great. Some of the moves you could tell were really contrived--you could almost hear the designers sitting around a table saying "how can we take this perfectly good pilates move and change it so that you can do it with a ball?" But other parts, especially the side kick series, were a lot tougher with the ball and overall the cool thing was that you had to do each move perfectly so that the ball wouldn't move around a lot.

Swimming on Saturday didn't involve much swimming. Claire didn't want to go into the regular pool--she stayed in the large wading pool the whole time, except for two trips down the HUGE slide. The first time down she loved it, but the second time down she got dumped from her inner tube (as did I on the other slide) and went under and I had to fish her out. She was fine, but scared, and didn't want to go back in.

On Saturday we also woke up and discovered that our DVD player was broken. It looks fine, but won't play any DVD's. Since I can't do any of my home workouts without it, Amy let me borrow her portable DVD player on Sunday but I never got around to doing anything on Sunday because of a series of mishaps on the way home. I stopped at the grocery store to pick some stuff up on my way home, and as I was getting out of my car, the car next to me ran into me (he was backing out of his space, didn't see me and ran into the back side of my car). So we got out and exchanged insurance information, but in the process of doing so, the wind (which was really gusty) blew my door closed, leaving me outside of the car and my purse and phone and keys INSIDE the locked car! Do you know how awkward it is to borrow the phone of the guy who just hit your car so that you can call someone to rescue you? Anyway, Brian came and it was at that point 7:00 and we were hungry, so we went to the Macaroni Grill for dinner. Superbowl Sunday is a good day to go to a restaurant--no waiting and no one to be bothered by your kids. But it wasn't very good for my diet. Up until then I had been really well behaved all weekend, and actually I wasn't really bad at the restaurant, but it was a lot more food than I normally eat, even though what I ordered (grilled balsamic honey chicken, angel hair pasta with sundried tomatoes, and steamed broccoli) was pretty healthy overall. But there was a lot of it. There were three chicken breasts (I ate one), probably two cups of pasta (I ate half) and only two spears of broccoli. And I had a beer. But my weight this morning is the same as it was on Saturday morning, so I guess that's not too bad.